Friday report on the state of my brain today. The state is assumed good until I hear otherwise or the universe throws a curve.
Drug Posts
Ahhh.. chocolate returns to start the day.
I don't remember falling asleep last night but it must haven been reasonably quickly. I opened my eyes 10 minutes ago and rolled over to see my orange clock. It wà 5:45am. A bit earlier than I prefer but I've learned not to risk going back for the second sleep at this point.it caused weird dreams and a very groggy morning. Still, I did close my...
Rare dream content
I woke up at 5am and went back to sleep. I had one of my less happy dreams before waking up again slowly at 6:38. When I say less happy, I don't really mean a nightmare. It's more of an anxiety stress dream. It hits my buttons. I was late for my opening day as manager of the store and things kept adding to my lateness in an almost comical way....
Heightened Awareness
A few draws on the pipe. Huge clouds. A giggle and an enhanced view. I remember this. Every woman looks prettier. I smile. I wish I could break into a conversation with anyone. Just to talk. To talk rapidly probably. I'm in the fast mode. I'm not used to the pipe. I always snorted my Tina. It's a different feeling and I might even say addictive....
Uranium
What if uranium wasn't harmful and deadly What if it's safe, but you click the right trigger the dinasaurs might get a second chance.. Story idea. The world is destroyed tonight at 6, but we've been reliving this day in a loop for 300 years. One child is born on that day and he is immune to its effect. He grows living in a hell at first and a...
This is where I’m honest, right
I'd like to think I could be honest again, because I think I'm worth a second look. I only feel this is true. When I'm high. I did a huge thing today. I just did it. I got high on a drug that isn't weed. Let me lead into that. I have a story. I'm an interesting thinker but drugs enabled me to think I could live without people. I became my worst...
The Grab I can’t Afford
Sometimes I amaze myself with what I'm willing to do to appease others. In this case, it's as much appeasing myself I suppose. I'm mixing up emotions in my head. This week I happened to acquire $100 in cash. This is money that rightfully should be dedicated to paying down my overdraft and covering bills. More specifically, this money was given to...
Second Life
This blog is a mixture of writings when I was high. Sometimes, very high. Orange Jeff is an alias that I use in the alternate Universe I spend time in known as Second Life. More than an alias, Orange Jeff is a persona. In that Universe, I am openly a drug user. Drugs exist in the 3D Avatar Universe with graphics and scripted routines. They're...