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Heightened Awareness

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Heightened Awareness

A few draws on the pipe. Huge clouds. A giggle and an enhanced view. I remember this. Every woman looks prettier. I smile. I wish I could break into a conversation with anyone. Just to talk. To talk rapidly probably. I’m in the fast mode.

I’m not used to the pipe. I always snorted my Tina. It’s a different feeling and I might even say addictive. I didn’t go too long without. It makes me sleep all day for a while, and I didn’t want to, do I went back downtown on the two hour round trip to get more. $50 worth. I tell myself I’ll make it last a week.ot will, because regardless of when I run out. I’ll not get more till at least Friday. I want to stop bit I need to time it when I can be asleep a week without pissing people off.

I always have plans for this extra motivation mood. I want to believe I’ll get work done. I’ll focus and be productive. I have two major projects in behind on.

I’m hyper. I want to believe do I do. The depression is mashed fir a while. 12 hours maybe. We’ll see if I did too much that my hear beat actually makes me tired again.any believe the real reason meth is harmful is the lack of good sleep. Depervation is what harms the brain.

I won’t deny I e been getting a bit crazy. But I don’t mind
I’m enjoying the ride. Documenting my descent into madness. I didn’t have much going on in my life with a normal intelligence. I’m ok losing some of it to experimentation. So far. I try not to regret my mistakes but adapt. I love adapting. It’s far easier than chosing.

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